Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Opening Up

I called Ley, she's a good friend of mine. I dunno, but i consider her more than a sister. We called each other up whenever one of us has a problem. At past time namin ang tsismis. Since I left <Insert Previous Town here> last 2010, we've been connecting with each other. Whenever i get back to the Town, i always made it sure na makakapunta ako sa bahay nila kasi kahit makukulet ang 5 nyang mga anak, ang ku-cute naman... hehehe...

At start, we talked about whoever crosses our mind. Then she said na kelangan nya nang pumasok sa bahay nila kasi aasikasuhin nya pa mga anak nya.

Juan   : Teka lang, may sasabihin pa ako sa'yo.
Ley    : Ano yon?
Juan   : (I just laughed)
Ley    : Ano nang sasabihin mo? May nobya ka na?
Juan   : Nobyo.
Ley    : Gaga. Totoo ka?
Juan   : Hehehe. Sa'yo ko lang to inopen... alam ko naman kasing makakaintindi ka.
Ley    : Sanay na ako sa ganyan, napapalibutan ako ng mga ganyan. Kung saan ka masaya, doon ka. What made you open this up?
Juan   : Wala, I just want to start this new relationship of mine in honesty.
Ley    : Shet, kakainggit ka... hahaha
Juan   : Gaga. Hahaha. Alam kong alam mo na kung ano ako, alam kong kahit medyo bingi ka (hahaha)... matalas ang pakiramdam mo. Inopen ko to pero wag mo akong tanungin about sa past ko, though alam kong alam mo (about kay Tony), pero ayokong i-mention kasi desisyon nya na kung sasabihin nya sa'yo kasi kaibigan mo rin naman sya.
Ley    : Yeah, hindi na ako magtatanong.

And we talked more about anything.

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This is my first time to acknowledge my sexuality to a close friend. (Excluding sa mga nakarelasyon ko... hehehe). Kinabahan ako ng sobra. Pero nong naumpishaan ko na, keri na. Total ginusto ko naman. Hehehe. I don't have plan yet na sabihin sa pamilya at sa ibang tao. Sa kay Ley lang.

Banat


Juan   : Si LJ ka ba?
LJ      : Opo...
Juan   : Ay, dapat "bakit?" ang sagot mo pogz.
LJ      : Bakit? Hahaha
Juan   : Hahaha... iibahin ko na nga lang tanong ko... hahaha... Nakita mo ba si LJ?
LJ      : Bakit?
Juan   : Pag makita mo sya, pakisabi naman na mahal ko sya.
LJ      : Alam nya na yan pogz, hahaha... Hangin ka ba?
Juan   : Bakit?
LJ      : Kasi di ako mabubuhay pag wala ka sa life cycle ko... Hahaha
Juan   : Hahaha... Kanta ka ba?
LJ      : Bakit?
Juan   : Kasi hindi kompleto araw ko kung wala ka. Hahaha... Sobrang mais na to... Hahaha
LJ      : Corny nga... hahaha

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Wala lungs.. tinupak lang kaming dalawa. Lakas makabanat kahit alam nang super corny... hahaha

And yes kami na ni LJ last June 8… hahaha… #KaladkarinMe

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Ice Cream

LJ got sick last night.

It all started with toothache... then naging fever.

I really wished that i could offer my body heat to cure his fever. Hehehe... #landi. Sabi kasi nila nakakagaling daw ng lagnat ang body heat...

Sabi nya nagsimula daw ang lahat noong hindi sya nilibre ng pinsan nya ng favorite nyang Cookies n' Cream Ice Cream... hehehe...

Pagaling ka... :)

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Walking Fast

During a phone conversation:

LJ : Nakikita kita nong nasa college pa tayo, ang bilis-bilis mong maglakad. Parang palaging naghahabol.

Juan: (laughed loudly) Alam mo kasi, kaya binibilisan kong maglakad para mag bounce ang hair ko. Hahaha...

#AngHabaNgHair

Saturday, June 9, 2012

Hello Stranger...

After a very tiresome trip to Cebu (Business Trip).  I slept the whole May 31 and woke up by 6pm. Habang nagpe-prepare ako ng dinner, na-check ko ang cp ko.

Unknown Number:     Hi
Juan:                            Hus this?
Unknown Number:     LJ (by the way itago na lang natin sya sa pangalan LJ.)
Juan:                            LJ <insert action star lastname here>? Lol... Do I know you?
LJ:                               LJ <insert lastname here>. Juan ryt?
Juan:                            Yup, i'm Juan, Parang friends ata tayo sa fb, kaya lang hindi na kita makita sa friend's list ko.

Pero actually, alam kong friends pa kami at alam kong something spelled backward ang name nya. Kaya mega search na agad ako. Matapos kung makita ang profile nya. At sya nga, yong cutee from my previous town. Hehehe.

LJ:       Pinalitan ko name ko. <insert fb name here> na xa.. Musta na?
Juan:    A kaya pala, Ok naman. kakagising ko lang... :) Kain tayo... :)

Hmmm... Ms Congeniality agad ang peg ko (yan din tawag ni maccallister sa akin kasi followed ko na daw lahat ng twitter friends nya... hahaha)...

LJ:       Cge po, pabusog. Enjoy your meal.

At dahil wala namang follow-up text kasi nga kumakain ako. Ded Madela na. Matapos kong kumain, nawili na ako sa aking favorite pasttime... ang lintek na Tetris sa FB.... hahaha..

June 1, 2011

LJ:       Musta?
Juan:    (Reply agad).. Hey good eve.. ok pa rin... kakarating lang galing sine...
LJ:       Nice pasttime.

More SMS exhange here....

LJ:       Sinong syota mo ngayon Juan?
Me:      (Like whooat? Ganun agad ang question? hehehe) Wala, hahaha. Nanood nga ako ng Snow White and the Huntsman kanina na mag-isa... Sanay na din.
LJ:       Weh... the tisoy mong yan walang syota? Maniwala...
Juan:    (Tisoy.. IKR... joke... hahaha) Pangit ko kaya, Ikaw siguro dami mong syota ikaw ang tisoy e... hehehe
LJ:       Wala nga e, 1 year and 3 months nang single. Jajaja.
Juan:    (Bilang talaga? hehehe) Hahaha, Ahead ka lang sa akin ng 1 month... (Mas bilang ko no... hahaha)
LJ:       Boring, e manila ka tapos walang BF, Kaya mo?
Juan:    Ok lang naman... Wala namang natisod... Hehehe.
LJ:       Pag matisod ako sa'yo Juan, saluhin mo kaya ako?
Juan:    (Whoooaaatttt!!! dafuq, watta question...)
LJ:       Ah, walang reply... Jajaja
Juan:    Hahaha, kakatuwa naman ang tanong mo... It's dependot... :)

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Abangan ang susunod na kabanata... Hehehehe...







Friday, June 8, 2012

My Boo [6]

Para sa mga hindi nakasunod:

My Boo
My Boo [2]
My Boo [3]
My Boo [4]
My Boo [5]

Sobrang taas na ng story ko kay Tony. Baka nagsawa na kayo sa kakabasa... Hehehe... Kaya ito na ang karugtong at huling bahagi ng istorya namin ni Tony.

Yup, nakakalungkot mang isipin pero dumating din ang katapusan sa aming dalawa. Nakakalungkot dahil nabalewala ang mahigit apat na taon naming magandang pagsasama. Hindi ko inexpect na magkaganun pero sadya atang ganito ang buhay, mapaglaro, mapaglinlang, nakaka-stress... :)

I considered my relationship with Tony as a relationship with strong foundation (damn i'm wrong). We never had a big fight. We seldom "tampo" to each other. Shet, anong english ng tampo?... When the other is not in good mood, the other pave way. He cooked me good food when I go to their house. I got acquainted with his family and i eventually develop a close relationship with Mamang and some of Tony's siblings and nephew. With the love that I got from him, it was just right that i will love him wholly. Basta lahat na. Simula sa pagbantay sa kanya sa hospital kung aatakehin sya uli ng UTI at lahat lahat.

Year 2009, i decided to expand my horizon. I wanted to enhance my skill in my chosen field. And I know that Manila can offer it. So we decided that I go first in manila and in less than a year, we would be together. We even bought a ticket for him with 30 kilos baggage allowance (syempre promo ng cebu pac... hehehe).

Months before he'll transfer here, he bailed. He gave me a valid reason. A very valid reason. He cannot leave his mother. Health reasons.

To cut the long story short. Hindi sya natuloy dito with me hoping na pwede pa syang makakasunod sa akin dito sa Manila. Until everything fell down: He seldom text me, He can't always answer his phone with different reasons. He got sour.

Hindi naman ako siguro manhid. Pero ilang buwan ko ding dinadala yon. Hanggang sa tinanong ko sya kung ano ang problema. And he asked for his freedom. His reason: he want to find his self and there is no third party.

It hurts like hell. But I cannot bear the fact that we will both suffer in a one way relationship. I let go.

This is the reason why i wrote this June 24, 2011 post Hanggang Kelan...

To cut the long story short again, here's a summary:
April 2011 - we're through.

October 2011 - i found out the real reason why he wanted to broke up with me. It hurts like more than hell. I begged that he'll give me another chance. I cried. I'm so pathetic that time. And finally, I let go again. Accepting my defeat and savoring the bitter taste of betrayal. I asked a favor from him that we'll still be friends and that he'll still text me.

December 2011 - Everything started to sink in to my senses. We become strangers.

January 2012 - From acceptance, i started to hate them (him and a friend).

March 2012 - I realized that i cannot live all my life hating them. Pero nag su-swing pa rin ang pain. Lalong-lalo na kung mapapaniginipan mo sya.

April 2012 - Nasanay na ako. I actually don't hate them na. Made myself busy watching movies. Lalong lalo na love stories at pag maka-relate ako, sasabay din ako sa iyak... hehehe... feeling ko i can access easily na my tear ducks... damn, pwede na akong mag artista... hehehe

From then on, i decided to move on. I can still sometimes feel the pain, pero keri na yon, i have no time na to make emo-emo. Move forth na... ganun lang... hehehe...

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You readers might feel that i ended my story telling in an anti-climactic way. Sinadya ko talaga. Kasi tagal nang hindi ko nasundan. Siguro tinamad na akong mag-isip pa at ayoko nang ungkatin pa sa namanhid kong puso ang sakit na pilit kong pinagagaling.

My life doesn't end when Tony did not chose me...

In fact, I have more stories to tell with the recent development in my life... I will post it perhaps tomorrow... hehehe.

 Life always give you two opposite choices: Be Happy or Be Chaka... all you have to do is choose well.